Saturday, October 1, 2016

A Glimpse of Shalom

I wake up this morning to the smell of campfire embers struggling to stay alive, the occasional sound of sleeping bodies shifting in hammocks, and shafts of sunlight just beginning to peek through the tree branches above.

In this moment, I am wrapped and comforted by the knowledge that this is all because of You. Surrounded by fellow believers, taking a weekend to admire Your creation, I am amazed at the glimpse of shalom that You have allowed me to experience. This is merely a fraction of the perfect connection I will feel when I stand in Your presence, yet even just this short moment is enough to leave me breathless. You still my restless heart and content my insatiable longing.

You are the cornerstone to my connection to these people, and because of that we have a bond that no secular relationship can parallel. You have loved us with a love that is not fickle and dependent on good weather. Because of your example, we have learned how to love each other unconditionally; Not for our own sake, but for Yours. 


Thank You, God, for friendships and allowing them to be a part of Your plan; for allowing us to draw closer to You by encouraging and sharpening each other. Please help me to develop an even deeper appreciation for You, the friends You have given me within the Body of Christ, and the creation You have made for us to explore. 

Thursday, March 10, 2016

I'm Not That [Breaking] Bad

Why do people like Breaking Bad so much? What draws people in so far that they will sit down and watch half of a season in a day? Breaking Bad feels like we could be watching the news and hearing about a model citizen gone bad. It seems as though its storyline could happen in real life. It gives us a closer look at some of the things that really happen in the methamphetamine industry. Breaking Bad allows us to dissect the life of a man just like us, but that lives a double life as a drug-lord, all while tucked away safely on our living room couch. It lets us see what we think it would be like to feel free from the financial unrest that many of us face.
            Breaking Bad seems real. Most drug dealer stories seem distant, but Breaking Bad is close to home. We could go our whole lives without meeting a “hardened criminal” drug dealer like Tuco, but it is quite unlikely that someone has never taken a high school Chemistry class. Walter, as a high school Chemistry teacher, connects us to this whole other world. He closes the gap between those who are seemingly unaffected by drugs and those who are in the drug industry.
            The show’s believable execution brings us closer to the world of methamphetamine. It is not like the cheesy sitcoms or overdramatized “reality” shows that we have become accustomed to. Each episode is comparable to a full length film in the amount of time that it looks like was dedicated to it. The actors never miss a beat, the cinematography is creative and connects us to the story, and the music draws us in emotionally. All this adds to the engaging screenplay that makes us feel like, in another life, we could have been Walter.
            People like this sense of familiarity, but also desire exploration. People want to see their own struggles portrayed on screen, but also to see their own problems overcome. So many people are struggling financially at this time, living paycheck to paycheck. They dream of living a worry-free life. Breaking Bad gives a story we are familiar with; a family with just enough, until tragedy strikes. Suddenly, we are scrambling to grasp any stable thing that we can. Walter’s family is able to get along comfortably until he is diagnosed with cancer. At the news of his malignant fate, Walter clambers to hold onto his family. Money seems to be the solution to our lack of freedom, but is difficult to get when every dollar seems to be sucked up by the endless vacuum of medical bills, car insurance, etc. caused by the tragedy. Walter is able to find a way to escape this bondage; at least, financial bondage.
            Walter discovers the ability to provide for his family by putting on a new persona, Heisenberg. This Doctor Jekyll and Mr. Hyde like scenario is appealing to us. People are not content with who they are and where they are at in life. Breaking Bad tells the story of a discontented man who is able to live a second life, parallel to his first. Because Walter claims that his depraved actions as Heisenberg are for his family’s wellbeing, it is difficult for us to decide whether or not we should root for him.
            The characters in Breaking Bad are complex. Walter isn’t the only one that we question our loyalty to. We want to pin down each character as good or bad, so we know who it is okay to give license to. Every character is exceedingly flawed, mirroring our own human nature. It is easy for us to recognize these vile attributes in other people, but much harder for us to acknowledge that we may falter in the same ways. Because of this, it is difficult for us to bring ourselves to decide whether to commend or condemn the characters of Breaking Bad. If we are willing to admit it, we see aspects of ourselves in all of them. These elaborate characters add to the intricacy of the show. We sit on the edge of our seat and anxiously wait 15 long seconds for the next episode to start, because we do not know what to think. We believe that the next segment of the story will clarify who we are supposed to approve of and we like the way this keeps us hooked.

            We gorge ourselves with Breaking Bad because it poignantly displays the human condition. The series allows us to examine other people dealing with our own life obstacles from the other side of a glass screen. We are free to scrutinize, empathize, and satirize; all while leaving us with the temporary illusion that at least I’m not that bad.